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Maybe the purpose of a blog is not so much of letting other people see what I post, but rather, a place where I can pen down my thoughts.

I haven't really 'blogged' for 110weeks, according to LJ. HAHA.

read through my past post, and somehow or another, it just gives me the strength to carry on, the motivation to work hard for what I have been aiming for. It just comes so sudden.

Somehow or another, I've lost my motivation to work hard. I used to love studying, I love GEOG, and it was my wish, my hope to get into NUS FASS. BUT, I went into the wrong faculty! I was in the School of Computing instead! And seriously, I've met many people. People whom I really Love, my dear friends. But I have also seen the worst sight of people, and how selfish people are actually.

And to think of it, I don't hate computing. But I don't do well in it too. And I wonder WHY.
Is it because I'm VERY distracted? or I've lost the motivation to carry on? or it's just not something that I like? or because ... I don't know..

I really used to hate the fact that I'm in SOC. but my teacher once told me, "what you like may not be what you will do well in. What you hate may be what you are really good in. And maybe some point in time, you will really come to love it." And so I believe. Which gives me the reason why I am here right now.

But after 1 year and 1 semester of 'studying', I havent been doing well. And to think it is cause I HAVE NO MOOD TO STUDY!!!!
and WHY? WHY? WHY?

Facts that I have to accept.
1. My CAP is only around 2. and I can never get SEP
2. I will graduate with NO honours IF this continues.
3. I have to pull up my CAP.

BUT HOW? i think SOC is the reason for my mental problem. period. -